"Sliding Doors"

I just got back from Stefanie's (she's new and my friendshrink) and I've come to realize something I've never really thought before. Or at least, the ideas were always there, but no event has ever triggered them to make me more aware that they were up there. I hope this makes sense so far, if not, it's only going to get bumpy from here.

I also hope this post doesn't sound "too" conceited*.

Anyway, here it is: we affect people. People affect people. There's no stopping it. Doesn't matter if we've known them our whole life or just minutes. I'm going to change that person in some way and unintentionally. Good or bad. If not their personality, I could just make them late for something, which could affect them because they weren't punctual. That last sentence was lame, I'm sorry. Anyway, you get the idea.

I was told I was addicting tonight. I've met some people like that, but never was that person. It certainly is the second best compliment I ever had. The first comes from a kid who said he wanted to be just like me and go to the exact same school and find a career in the exact same field. Makes me feel like I'm doing something right. Those comments will probably change me forever, just like the people.

I was also informed tonight that I changed someone else for good. I changed someone. Can you believe it? People didn't think highly of him before, but then he dated me and now people like the certain qualities he adopted from me. Because of me, someone else is living differently. To think that someone else took a part of me with them and are using it so much that it becomes to a point where people are noticing and respecting. Crazy. I was so thrown off that the best word I can come up with is "crazy."


I have to take a breather for a minute.


I feel like my mind is racing a lot faster than I can type, so I'm pretty sure most of this isn't coming out as clear as it could, but I was so touched tonight that I had to write it down, and why not share it with the world? Have them think about those that they too have affected. Sometimes its doesn't always seem like a good affection, but don't worry. Everything happens for a reason and for better, so in the end everything will be the way that it was meant to. We learn. We grow. We're good.


*Best conceited joke from Saturday Night Live
"I love you, you know."
"I know."
"You're conceited."


Best movie to watch to understand where I'm coming from: Sliding Doors